Coleen found it difficult to have conversations when she wasn’t ‘the chubby one’

oose Women star Coleen Nolan has opened up on how she really felt when she lost a lot of weight, revealing “the grass isn’t always greener”.

Coleen appeared on Loose Women: Just Between Us podcast with Christine Lampard, when the pair discussed the topic of losing weight.

A viewer had sent in a dilemma revealing she was struggling to lose weight after giving birth. And Coleen offered her own experience of not actually feeling like herself when she lost weight a few years ago.

Coleen felt like everyone was watching her and waiting for her to gain the weight (Credit: YouTube)

Coleen Nolan struggled on Loose Women after losing weight

Back in 2010, Coleen lost around five stone. During this time she was on Dancing On Ice, and also had done a big reunion tour with her sister.

Christine asked her: “You felt like you slightly lost your identity, didn’t you?”

Coleen confirmed: “Oh I massively did. This was for a good fews years. It was sort of Dancing On Ice time. Me and my sister did a big reunion tour. It was the busiest year, 2009 and 2010. I think I lost about five stone in total.

“I went down to a size 10. But I knew as I was doing it that I wouldn’t be able to keep it up. I was making a DVD. And at the time, they would send you out a trainer. I was training for six days a week. They would phone me and ask what I had eaten.”

While Coleen admitted that it “absolutely worked” she confessed that she “lost” who she was in the process, especially when on Loose Women.

“I lost me. Mainly on Loose Women. I remember people saying to me, even my sister would say: ‘You’re really quiet now on Loose Women,’ which is really unheard of for me.

“But I was quiet. I didn’t know what to talk about anymore. My thing had always been that I was the chubby one on the panel. Or you need to go eat more cake. When you go cold, I eat cake. I’m always hot. So, it was all of that having-a-go-at-me type of humour.”

Coleen went on to admit that as she “couldn’t be self-deprecating anymore” she ultimately didn’t know “how to join a conversation”.

Coleen was on Dancing On Ice when she reached a size 10 (Credit: SplashNews.com)

Coleen felt ‘more pressure’

It wasn’t only holding a conversation that became a struggle for Coleen, but she also felt like there were more eyes on her, waiting for her to put the weight back on.

She explained to Christine: “I felt more pressure when I reached size 10. The pressure of everyone looking at me was insane. I felt everyone was looking at me waiting for me to put it back on. Everything I did, I could see people looking.”

However, all of that changed when Coleen spotted one headline in the papers, that made her go and get a burger.

“I got the best headline of my whole life, which I framed. It said: ‘Has Coleen taken it too far?’ I lived for that headline. It was the last and only time I ever had that.

“They had this picture of me walking down the street looking really – I didn’t look skinny – but I looked super slim. I was like ‘Yes!’ So I went and had a burger.”

Christine asked her if she felt more like herself when she started putting weight back on and not training everyday, and Coleen admitted that she did, because she knows who she is.

She said: “I think I know my own. What I have learnt through all the dieting is that there is a certain weight that I reach. Size 10 is unrealistic for me. It was impossible to keep up.”